Manipulation

Once, instead of my immediate supervisor, his supervisor came, who, after observing me for a while, said that I can work with him and that he can teach me a lot, and I, in turn, will help him. Of course, I didn’t object because I had to take advantage of such an opportunity.
The only thing I would like to say while describing him, was that he talked a lot, all the time. All this lasted for about a month and the only thing he did during this whole time was to talk constantly, he talked about the fact that it is very difficult for the girls here, that I can’t do it in the conditions of this competition, but we worked well together and so on and so on.
Once, while taking me home, he stopped the car in the middle of the road. I don’t remember what we were talking about, and asked what I would do if he kissed me then. I said that I would slap him and looked at him sniggering. We made it a joke and moved on. A few days after dropping me off, he stopped the car again, looked at me, and approached me for a kiss, I don’t know what happened, but I kissed him, although I later realized that I did it casually, without thinking too much. Since we were in the car stopped on the road, I asked whether we’d better go to another place, meaning somewhere more hidden, away from people’s eyes, so they wouldn’t see us kissing in the car. He started driving and very quickly we reached a place with some garages, which turned out to be a hotel. I already understood what he wanted from me and the only thing I was thinking was that I am now in his car, I just kissed him and now I have nowhere to go back. I thought that if I said no then, it would harm me. I went to a hotel with him, the first hotel in my life/laughs/, but I was sure that if I stopped, everything would be over. As a result, happened what had happened… I have never been so emotionless in my life and the only thought I had was “do it quickly, let’s finish and go.” Then he took me home.
He came the next day, gave an assignment in the office, and left. He gave me a very difficult job, which I definitely could not have done alone with good quality, and even one of the guys said. “How did you make him so angry that he is punishing you like that?”
He took me home again, and the next day when I went to work, he was not there, my former supervisor was there. Later he came and said that he found a new job for me.
I realized that what had happened to me was manipulation when I once saw a movie about how an employer gives work in exchange for sexual services, and how one of the actors said that he did not mind doing it. , but was actually against it. The interesting thing is that at the very beginning, when we were communicating, I proudly said that I have a very good sense of manipulation and that I cannot be manipulated /she smiles/, but in fact…
After that, I realized that I felt the same thing, and I realized that I was taken advantage of and the only feeling I have is disgust with everything.
Anyway, I want to share this now to tell people that I’m not guilty, even though once we stop talking I’m going to think that maybe I was guilty, but I know that I’ve been part of a game without realizing it, and this phenomenon also exists in our society. The idea is that if you’re drinking coffee with a guy at 11 o’clock at night, you have one thing on your mind, if you’re doing something that guys usually do and you’re around them all the time, then you have another thing on your mind if you’re not a virgin, then you’re always ready to have sex and stuff like that.
I hope that from my story, people will start to think about their attitudes and get rid of the feeling of toxic attachment that arises during manipulation.

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